Demosthenes
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Aug 18, 2006, 5:24 PM
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A Small Bit of LARVAE Bullshit for you all.
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March 4, 2006 A Dark Cloud Hangs over FGF. Just yesterday I changed to my original principles again. And yet my problems came along with it. Time will tell what will happened. Today is just the invitation. The tide will turn once again. A new FGF will be ressurected. Those who do not take action and wait to long will be smitten by dubeity. Those who follow their heart till the end will not go in vain and will be rewarded. This is what happens when the problem is overfed. To the people whose dreams are big and motives are pure. I salute thee. To those who are unclear of themselves, goodbye. March 3, 2006 Life is slowly moving fast. One day lasted forever and tomorrow was already a new year. Where will we go? What will we do? I don't know....For the last few days, life has been cruel. Then I realized the question. Who Am I...Really? Ever since I came back mid to late 2005 and up till now, I have been the most disgusting person on FGF. I thought, hey I might as well start all new. But everywhere I went, people misunderstood me. People did not know who I am or was. People had changed! Even the people I once new changed... I had too much pride to accept this. So I brought out my anger. This anger got me banned by TazG......................When TazG spoke to me of why I was banned. He said it was because I was unstable. I have always been paranoid...I knew that, but this was weird. Containing my emotions was something I was not used too. But then again, I was showing massive anger. I told him I would change for the better. He said I didn't have to. He just wanted me to be humble and happy. And I acted like he should open up his feelings more but who was I to tell him. This guy was more sure of himself than I was. When I came back, I started posting more properly, orderly, but no emotions. Yes I still had my random outbursts towards some people. That could slide comparing tothis new attitude and persona. Still, I just didn't see the point in my posts. What was the point in posting at all. Nothing has changed. I am trying to be humble and I want to prove TazG wrong that I am stable. But why post when there's no love behind it? I even doubted my friendship and trust to my closest friend on FGF, Katiuscaa because I thought she told TazG my secrets and because she didn't care by avoiding me. I was so stupid. So I started looking back at my posts. My pinnacle was in 2004. My happiest times on FGF. I read my posts, and each post I read I envy that person more and my memories came pouring like a flood. I have let my feelings subside, my true feelings, the love of posting. I never realized I have lost my old self, my true self. That was when I was surer than anyone else about myself. I was determined and straight to the point and knew what I was talking about. I'm still surprised at the many things I've written. And here I was just a some days, telling people to be themselves when I was just trying to convey my emotions without knowing it. I am such a fool. I lost my confidence last year. But now I'm going to change back. Ever since that love post, it's making me want to change back. And I know I can be once again, LARVAE not Profuse.
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-Jindrak
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